Finding the Good In All Situations - Part 2

I recently went through a situation that placed a ton of stress on me. It was all encompassing to me at the time and as a result of this I made it all encompassing to those around me. This created stress, tension, angst and morose amongst my loved ones and friends. My lack of ability to soothe myself caused me to look outside of myself for that satiation. As you might expect, the soothing from friends and loved ones only went so far. After a while, I lost strength at the core of myself. I started to question myself. Then I started to question those around me. I questioned their love and devotion. I questioned why they were behaving so poorly towards me. It caused a lot of unneeded tension and sadness for everyone involved.  It was not until the mistakes had been made that I finally realized through the help of a very special friend that I love dearly what was occurring was not anyone's wrongdoing or unsympathetic action. It was in fact my constant drawing upon others to satiate my ego. In thinking that others were disappointed or walking out on relationships, I created an illusion in my mind that almost became my reality with several of my relationships. Damage occurred in relationships that I am responsible for fixing and working through.