A Weight Loss Story - Part 4

The weight was becoming an issue for me and my self esteem was in the dumps. If you have been there you know what I am talking about. I just kept ignoring my feelings and the issues surrounding them and kept packing on the pounds. I went for a 29 inch waist to a 36 in waist pretty quickly after things began to get difficult for me personally. I saw it in the mirror but ignored it an justified it with too much work, not enough time for myself and lack of money for the gym. Hey, I was a dad of two kids tight? Every excuse that I could muster was on hand every time I looked in the mirror.

Once I started thinking about how to lose weight again, I began looking at the easy options first. I knew that some of them would not work well and some were a bit dangerous as well. Then a little drug called phentermine came onto the scene. It was great! I gave appetite control and a huge burst of energy as well. Basically it was speed. I dropped the weight ten pounds per week at a time. I got back down to weight in a month. I was pumped.

Then the unforeseen happened. I stopped losing and started gaining again. My appetite was out of control and the phentermine was making me lose sleep. I had to take more and more of the drug to keep the feeling of higher energy constant and to depress my appetite. It affected my libido and GI functions. I used laxatives to offset my eating and I was under eating in an effort to stay thin. This went on for a few years. People began dying from the use of this drug and they FDA pulled it from shelves in the US.

No more magic pill and I crashed hard. My metabolism was totally upside down and could not get used to the real world again. I put the weight I lost back on in less than three weeks and twenty more pounds followed over the next month. I was 250lbs now and I thought less of myself than ever. My married life stunk big time and my work life was being impacted constantly by my physical condition. I was tired and sick all the time. I thought after a while that was how I would feel forever, I got used to it.

The next attempt....