I stayed lean and trim for a few years and then the stresses started to mount. All at once there were two children, a mortgage, a car payment and tons of other bills piling up after I had worked so hard to get them down. The money I was making was well above average but I still wanted more. More things, more freedom, more!
My second wife and I began to fight over spending. Time alone was a nonexistent luxury in our home. We were apart for work and the occasional happy hour but nothing else. Kids, bills and each other dominated the scene. It was about this time I really started to gain weight. I put on ten pounds pretty fast just by cutting out the workouts. I began feeling bad about my body image. I became a bit depressed. I started eating more.
I ate the wrong things. My second was is a very good mexican cook and she spared no calories in my pursuit of heaviness. Time was short before I had put on thirty five pounds. I bought new pants and other clothes to deal with my girth. I felt bad about myself but I chose to ignore it.
My married life was getting harder and harder. My second wife and I disagreed on spending, my parents, bills, alone time, chores and anything else under the sun. I dealt with issues by pushing them down and hiding my feelings. Times were tough and only getting tougher. My caring nature made me want to fix everything but I couldn't. Unfortunately what I did not realize was that my physical, mental and spiritual degradation was also degrading my relationship and my life.
The weight comes off... Partially
This blog is a view into my life as a creative spiritual being in a human body here with all of you on earth. I am an intuitive. I just know things. I am sure some of you identify with this. If you do not, that's ok. There are no wrong answers here. I only can tell you what I know to be true or what feels true to me on a soul level. Let's travel together along this winding road to create, love and inspire the world around us. Blessings. David C Skul
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
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